Of the summer!
Yes I said it. I am an autumn person (perhaps swayed by my birthday being in October) and proud of it.
I do not enjoy the sun and the heat. British summers are just sticky and uncomfortable.
We are not equipped for extreme weather conditions, there's some snow the country goes into panic mode, there's major heat we have no air conditioning.
I literally don't think any shops have air conditioning here.
This weekend has been, as far as I'm concerned crazy hot, and for a girl who doesn't get her legs out (aka an all year round jeans wearer) then the hot weather is so not ideal.
The main reason why I detest the sun (others reasons include skin cancer, restless nights, sweaty places, etc etc) but yes the main reason for this post is this......

Just looking at this picture makes me want to vomit.
I have developed a large fear of spiders, any shape, any size, any where. My fear does also include general bugs, creepy crawlies and moths, but it's mainly spiders.
I feel bad for hating spiders so much, I'm a veggie and feel like I should like all animals, but to me spiders are pure devil evilness.
My fear is growing, I scream, I freeze on the spot, or will run a mile depending on how close they are, my heart rate increases, I feel panicked and nervous for ages after.
The garden is my main area of dread. I have to go out there on a daily basis because of my buns, but the last week or so this has literally become a nightmare.
2 recent incidents have freaked my out lately. Last week I was cleaning (attempting to) my rabbits hutch, I freaked out after thinking a spider was hanging from my glasses, I batted said "spider" off, and then ran screaming back into my house, where I then proceeded to strip my clothes off and then stomp on them to make sure the spider was not on me. I then checked myself out in front of the mirror front and back several times to make sure it wasn't on me, I untied my hair and shook it about, once dressed I then took an hour to calm myself down. I decided then that I needed to be brave a finish cleaning the hutch as there was no way I could leave it, and in the dark the spiders can attack in secret so day time was best. I soldered on through but came across another 4 spiders!!! Once I'm in a state of this sort of freak out I am totally on edge, for example if a strand of my hair touches my arm it make me jump or scream, a leaf blowing in the wind makes me freeze to the spot before I'm certain its not Satan's spawn. Reassessing the days events later that evening I began to think that I didn't actually have a spider hanging from my glasses I think it was just one of those hover flies, but alas the freak out started immediately.
The second hideous occurrence was last night, once again in my garden (aka hell) I was tucking my little buns in for the night, I went to reach the top of the hutch covers and there it was. The giant monster beast. I froze, I couldn't possibly go near it, so I decided to wait and watch it to see where it was going. After about 5 minutes it started to move away from what I needed to get to, So I quickly went to put the covers down and then the patio door opened which made my jump. My Mum's hubby asked what I was doing I explained whilst fastening the covers. He then decided to move the box the ginormous spider was on, I ran inside and said he couldn't touch it til I was far away. He then flicked it off down the garden.
Again as I should love all animals I should prefer the harm free removal of spiders, but I don't, I like to know that they are gone from this world for good.
After all what is the point of spiders??? Just to torment and terrify as far as I'm concerned.
Part of me would like to get over this fear, so that I can learn to behave like a normal person and also to not want to harm them, but the bigger part in me just wants them gone, my nerves can't handle it.
Whilst looking for a house spider picture, I came across these ridiculous things.....


Well I'm off to have nightmares now!
I hope I didn't offend any spider lovers. It was not my attention to offend, if anything I wanted to highlight my craziness!